Sunday, December 19, 2010

The Depths Of My Heart

Well it’s certainly been a long time since I have written here! I guess I can blame that on a thing I like to call “teachers who like to cram everything that they possibly can into the last few weeks of school and make our lives miserable.” Its pretty terrible and if you have never experienced it, consider yourself extremely blessed. Seriously. Anyways, I have had so many things I have wanted to write here about but really just didn’t have the time and or inspiration to do so… but thankfully I am in a place where I’m at peace and my school work is through and I can just relax for a whole month. Magical.
Finals and life craziness aside, there is one thing that has really been on my heart and mind. I have a playlist on grooveshark going, and the song Indescribable by Chris Tomlin is on it… I was listening one day and at the end of the song there is a verse that really just stuck out. It says- ”Incomparable, unchangeable, you see the depths of my heart and you love me the same.” It hit me really hard… what an insane concept to even begin to try and grasp. God, the creator of the universe, the big guy upstairs loves every single part of me, to the deepest trench of my heart… He loves me. Take a minute and really think about what kind of junk and baggage is in the depths of your heart… grudges against people who have done you wrong, immoral thoughts, secrets that you would be embarrassed or ashamed to confess even to your closest friend. Yeah, well he knows every single detail of every secret. Now there’s some nasty stuff in those depths, and yet he puts all of that aside and he loves us, not because he has to but because he wants to love us. THAT’S INSANE! I hope you are as blown away by this as I am. Not only does He love us, but He wants to go further than that. He wants a relationship with us! This guy who created the universe… He wants a relationship with me, a sinner. I don’t take time to love Him nearly as much as I should, sometimes I don’t give him the time of day… and yet he wants to be near me and know me. My father is standing right there, with open arms! There is nothing in the world that would make him happier than a personal relationship and time with me on a daily basis and I cant even do that! For me personally, this is something I need to work on. It’s discouraging sometimes, but I need to take heart in the forgiveness of God and change things!
Examine the depths of your heart… realize that although there are some foul things there, God loves every single piece of you. Then I would challenge you to get rid of that baggage. Do what you need to do; it’s going to be a different process for everyone. If your heart is broken, He can put it back together… but he needs all the pieces, baggage and all.